I'm A Loser, Baby.

First off, I would like to admit and take full responsibility for the fact that I have fallen off track. I'm eating into my 48 days heavily with not much to show for it. There are excuses, as there always are. It has been a challenging two weeks. But, my goal in all of this is to be able to overcome the the exceptionally difficult times by creating productive habits that allow me to continually strive towards meeting my goals while also addressing immediate concerns that may spring up.

Today I will get back on track. There are several things I must get back in order to give myself clear objectives. I will plan out my goals and break them down by what I wish to accomplish today, tomorrow, this week, this month, and this year.

I wish to also focus on minimizing distractions. I'm going to take some small steps and rather large ones as well. I'm using a program called Time Doctor to track my time for the next two weeks, at least. It will track applications I use, websites I go to, and attempt to match them with stated priorities/goals to give me a report showing just how much time I spend working towards my goals, and how much time I spend on distractions.

Let me openly admit my flaws that will make future successes difficult:

I'm very easily distracted. ADD? Probably. OCD? A little. Lazy? Too often.

I'm an avid gamer- PS3, XBox 360, Wii, PC Games, Cell Phone games, iPad, Android, Gamespot.com, etc, etc. This is a huge hurdle. It's how I like to relieve stress and I certainly plan on keeping it apart of my life. But I must sever it being a go-to time waster so easily.

I love my Smartphone. DRROOOIIIID! I love my Droid X. Google and Android OS FTW! Playing on my phone can be a full time job in itself. If there is a way to make money fiddling with my settings and apps, please let me know. In the meantime, I must stop giving it control. How will I do this? I will try to figure that out today.

I'm a cat lover. I have two young cats. And they are just the cutest darn things you will ever see. They seek attention and I gladly give it to them. It is important for me to minimize the distracting cuteness. This might be as simple as locking them out of my office. But then I get to see cute little furry paws stick out from under the door as they attempt to figure out how to break in the room. That alone is enough to make me drop everything and swim in the sea of adorableness. Did I mention I'm a bit ADD? "In a true free market, it is important for the government to... awww, look at the kitty!"

Finally, I am a PROCRASTINATOR. The best you will ever see. Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow? That line will end up on my tombstone if I don't get myself under control. Procrastinating can be a great tool in a pinch. But, 99.9% of the time, it will come back to bite you. If only I can get that into my thick skull....

Some of these aren't really flaws. More hurdles, really. But I must get them under control if I am to success.

I will end it here for the time being. I must practice what I preach. I will be by later with details of my progress.